Random things

Every day I have been thinking. I am 14 years old and there are allot of things that I want. Not like a hair straightener or a new cell phone...some thing like trust and love. I know some teens that are my age that can be...well crazy and out of there minds. All they care about is there cell phones and boys/girls. For me I'm not wanting any of that stuff. Some people say that I'm a regular teenager that likes boys and every thing a teen girl likes. Well they don't know who this girl is at all. Of course I may have a little crush on a guy but that's normal for any girl. But this girl is a girl who wants to focus on family, friends, God and..........well school. I do want to get better at learning so I can be in High School next year.

Every day I think of memory's from when I was not a teen. I think about when I asked my parents questions when I was clueless about some thing. Like for a TV show. There were allot of TV shows like CSI or Numbers. I used to drive my parents nuts by asking them ALLOT of questions of what was going on, on the show. But now my parents drive me crazy when were watching TV. Go ahead and ask a question and I'll answer. (if it involves with my favorite TV show) I'm 14 and is still learning about life. I think I know every thing but I don't. But I do know allot more things than most people think I do.

Some people will give me things or tell other people who ask about me and tell them things that are completely opposite than from who I am. Allot of people I know, still don't really know me but start judging me for who I am even when they still don't know me VERY well. Like every one says "Don't judge a book by its cover, read it first than judge or don't judge at all" That's the same thing for people. I have judged some people with out getting to know them and then when I do get to know them, there not the person who I thought they were, every one has done that. And every body knows about judging. But some people do it with out even realizing or some people judge them on purpose. The only person who can judge some one is God.

If you are wondering what I think of who I am than here is what I'm going to say.

First of all...I'm a girl who is a dreamer. I dream random things almost every time and I daydream WAY to much. I have a big imagination and I love sharing my imagination with my nephews and nieces and allot of kids who I babysit. I like playing outside and doesn't care about getting sweaty, but always tries my best to stay clean and tries not to stink....
I'm getting to where I take a shower every day, brushes my teeth that is followed by flossing, and washing my mouth with mouth wash (I know I'm sounding stupid for saying that even when you know that I do do that...) . Also I'm starting to take care of my hair and etc. Just any thing a girl or a adult woman who takes care of her looks and her body. Now enough about that. I love playing sports and playing games on the computer. I am home schooled. I have a hearing loss. And I'm thinking allot but I think I'm thinking a little to much.....(uuhh I know that seemed a little confusing...) I have always done some things that have got me in trouble for not stopping before doing some thing and think about what your doing. But I'm trying and is still working on it. As you can see, I'm a girl who tries to show her family that I'm not a little girl any more and that I have allot of responsibility's that I try to get done. First of all I want to earn is my brother and sisters trust of me being with there kids alone in there house while there gone. I love babysitting and taking care of little kids or helping out in the nursery at church. My number one favorite thing in the world is my family, friends, and also God!! =] I'm gentle but still can be tough when it comes to rustling with my nephews, I love being nice to people (I'm serious) I just hate being mean to some one or hurting there feelings. I like being a teenager and who doesn't?
I can be a little weird and crazy but that's just me. I can be really quiet around some people but with others, I can be outgoing with. I like talking with adults more than talking with people around my age because they understand you more and knows how to answer your questions. I'm sort of a girly girl but mostly a tomboy. I love clothes, I like T-shirts with funny phrases or some thing that shows who I am. I love skinny jeans with flairs. I love tennis shoes but not the kinds that are big but the ones that fit around your feet good and that are light. I love wearing layers. My favorite colors are all the cool colors (green, purple, dark blue, blue, light purple...you get idea!) I hate it when people ignore me or call me weird or don't except me for who I am. And most importantly I am a girl who loves God and who loves being there for a friend when they need a friend to talk about some thing in there life. I love listening to my friends and what they have to say and that's when they trust me. I just love it when some one just sits by you and looks up to me and knows that I'm there for them no matter what. Even if its a grown adult.

I know that I wrote allot about myself and I know that for those who know me and is my friend or relative, you may know allot about what I just wrote down already. But I just wanted to tell you about some things that you may have not known. Allot of people say that I'm one of a kind. Why don't you became my friend and give me your trust so I can be there for you even if you way older than me. =]

-Your trusting friend, Carissa