Gossip

What do you think about gossiping? Well what I think about gossiping that it hurts people, when the secrets come out there is no way of keeping people from hearing them. I have had alot of friends getting there feelings hurt from them when they found out what that person said about them. When some one talks about one person and says things like "oh she's so not the girl for that kind of guy!" or "I think that they may have a thing?" First Timothy says "They will be judged for not doing what they first promis to do. Besides that, They learn to waste their time, going from house to house. And they not only waste their time but also begin to gossip and busy themselves with other people's lives, saying things they should not say." So saying things that is none of our bussiness about that other person behind there backs is gossip. And sure anough...that is sin.Proverbs 18:7-8 "The words of fools will ruin them, their own words will trap them. The words of gossip are like tasty bits of food. People like to gobble them up." You are not only hurting that person but you are hurting yourself and we have to be careful of what we say or you'll lose that friend and may lose others too. also Proverbs 11:12-13 says " People with out good sense find fault with their neighbors, but those with understanding keep quiet. Gossips can't keep secrets, but a trustworthy person can." So be careful to who you tell your secrets too because you may never know if they might tell another person too.Also you really need to try and avoid gossip like proverbs 20:19 says "Gossip can't keep secrets, so avoid people who talk to much." Some times we don't need to tell a friend about every thing that is going on in your life. We don't need to stick our noses in other peoples bussinesses because its their lives and not ours. So we don't need to be going around saying things about them and say things like "Oh I hate her/him so much I just wish she/he would dissapear!" If they hurt your feelings and say things about you that is not true and gossip about you don't even think about trying to get them back or it'll only make things worse. So all we have to do is to ask God to take the hurt away and pray for that person who hurt you and ask God to forgive that person and that you will still be friends with that person. We always have to forgive and you know the saying "forgive and forget!"

Random things

Every day I have been thinking. I am 14 years old and there are allot of things that I want. Not like a hair straightener or a new cell phone...some thing like trust and love. I know some teens that are my age that can be...well crazy and out of there minds. All they care about is there cell phones and boys/girls. For me I'm not wanting any of that stuff. Some people say that I'm a regular teenager that likes boys and every thing a teen girl likes. Well they don't know who this girl is at all. Of course I may have a little crush on a guy but that's normal for any girl. But this girl is a girl who wants to focus on family, friends, God and..........well school. I do want to get better at learning so I can be in High School next year.

Every day I think of memory's from when I was not a teen. I think about when I asked my parents questions when I was clueless about some thing. Like for a TV show. There were allot of TV shows like CSI or Numbers. I used to drive my parents nuts by asking them ALLOT of questions of what was going on, on the show. But now my parents drive me crazy when were watching TV. Go ahead and ask a question and I'll answer. (if it involves with my favorite TV show) I'm 14 and is still learning about life. I think I know every thing but I don't. But I do know allot more things than most people think I do.

Some people will give me things or tell other people who ask about me and tell them things that are completely opposite than from who I am. Allot of people I know, still don't really know me but start judging me for who I am even when they still don't know me VERY well. Like every one says "Don't judge a book by its cover, read it first than judge or don't judge at all" That's the same thing for people. I have judged some people with out getting to know them and then when I do get to know them, there not the person who I thought they were, every one has done that. And every body knows about judging. But some people do it with out even realizing or some people judge them on purpose. The only person who can judge some one is God.

If you are wondering what I think of who I am than here is what I'm going to say.

First of all...I'm a girl who is a dreamer. I dream random things almost every time and I daydream WAY to much. I have a big imagination and I love sharing my imagination with my nephews and nieces and allot of kids who I babysit. I like playing outside and doesn't care about getting sweaty, but always tries my best to stay clean and tries not to stink....
I'm getting to where I take a shower every day, brushes my teeth that is followed by flossing, and washing my mouth with mouth wash (I know I'm sounding stupid for saying that even when you know that I do do that...) . Also I'm starting to take care of my hair and etc. Just any thing a girl or a adult woman who takes care of her looks and her body. Now enough about that. I love playing sports and playing games on the computer. I am home schooled. I have a hearing loss. And I'm thinking allot but I think I'm thinking a little to much.....(uuhh I know that seemed a little confusing...) I have always done some things that have got me in trouble for not stopping before doing some thing and think about what your doing. But I'm trying and is still working on it. As you can see, I'm a girl who tries to show her family that I'm not a little girl any more and that I have allot of responsibility's that I try to get done. First of all I want to earn is my brother and sisters trust of me being with there kids alone in there house while there gone. I love babysitting and taking care of little kids or helping out in the nursery at church. My number one favorite thing in the world is my family, friends, and also God!! =] I'm gentle but still can be tough when it comes to rustling with my nephews, I love being nice to people (I'm serious) I just hate being mean to some one or hurting there feelings. I like being a teenager and who doesn't?
I can be a little weird and crazy but that's just me. I can be really quiet around some people but with others, I can be outgoing with. I like talking with adults more than talking with people around my age because they understand you more and knows how to answer your questions. I'm sort of a girly girl but mostly a tomboy. I love clothes, I like T-shirts with funny phrases or some thing that shows who I am. I love skinny jeans with flairs. I love tennis shoes but not the kinds that are big but the ones that fit around your feet good and that are light. I love wearing layers. My favorite colors are all the cool colors (green, purple, dark blue, blue, light purple...you get idea!) I hate it when people ignore me or call me weird or don't except me for who I am. And most importantly I am a girl who loves God and who loves being there for a friend when they need a friend to talk about some thing in there life. I love listening to my friends and what they have to say and that's when they trust me. I just love it when some one just sits by you and looks up to me and knows that I'm there for them no matter what. Even if its a grown adult.

I know that I wrote allot about myself and I know that for those who know me and is my friend or relative, you may know allot about what I just wrote down already. But I just wanted to tell you about some things that you may have not known. Allot of people say that I'm one of a kind. Why don't you became my friend and give me your trust so I can be there for you even if you way older than me. =]

-Your trusting friend, Carissa

A Question

There is a small group that I go to every Wednesday at my co-op. A few of my friends get together and pray for each other-talk about life problems and know that God is the one that can fix that. We also ask each other questions about things from the bible, like this one question that my friend Megan asked us when we were talking about faith and standing up for what we believe in. she asked us and said, "If there is this situation where a gun is pointed straight at your head and the gunman asks you, "Are you a christian?" What would you say?" do you have enough faith to stand up for what you believe in, in a time like that? For me...I don't know, but I do know that I'm not ready for that kind of situation yet but I would do any thing to be ready. But I know that I have enough faith to tell any one that I'm a christian and that I love God with all my heart.

There is this one story about this girl who went to public school. She was a christian and she takes her bible to school everyday and when ever she has a free time she always goes to the school library and reads her bible there. Well one day she was in the library reading the bible when all of a sudden there comes a a person with a gun in his hand and points the gun straight to her head and asks, "Are you a christian?" the girl says, without hesitation, "Yes I'm a christian" and then the gunman asks "Why" and before the girl could answer the gunman shoots her. Later the gunman kills a couple of other Christians that were at that school. What I really liked about the true story was that the girl actually told the gunman that she was a christian. She stood up for what she believed in even when a gun was pointed straight at her head.

I really look up to her and I want to be able to have faith like that. I want to be ready if that ever happens to me. But before that ever happened to that girl, she told her mom that she believed that God was telling her that some thing was about to happen. And so she got ready. I don't think that will happen to us with out a reason. That would have to happen in the right time. God chooses the right time and plans out your future.

I have been thinking about this allot and I have asked myself many times, if that time comes...will I be ready? My mother has told me that if some thing happens like that, you will not be alone. God will always be there for you and even in things like that. He will tell you what your supposed to say. He might not even want you to say yes. But maybe if you say yes then some thing will happen to the gunman like he will get confused at your boldness and forget what he was about to do.

But yeah...its your turn to think it out. What would you do if a gun is pointing straight at your head and the gunman asks you, "Are you a christian and do you believe that there is a god?" what would you say? I want your honest appinion.

Hearing loss, Reading lips

As you all know I have a hearing loss. And those who don't know what a hearing loss is when a ear doesn't have a nerve in there ear that works and one of my nerves don't work so I can't hear as well. But lucky me! I can read lips. But I can't read lips when some one is trying to say some thing to me by just mouthing it really big. They have to just move there lips like normal or other wise I'll think your trying to be stupid. Some people get hearing loss when there old like around 70 and up. Well for me...I was born with a hearing loss.

My mom and dad have told me that when I was just a baby and I was strong anough to sit or cral, I would play with my toys and not hear a thing of what is going on. But when they will say "Carissa! looky here!" I will not turn my head towards them like I heard them. And if the T.V. was on too loud and I was asleep I will not wake up and hear the T.V.

When I was finaly around 4 years old and I still couldn't hear. My perents was getting worried that I could be deaf. So they took me to the ear docter for a check up. And the ear docter told my perents that I had a hearing loss. They were dissapointed becuase I couldn't really hear any thing but the ear docter told them that when I get older my hearing will get better but I'll still not hear like ya'll can. But thank God they made hearing aids. There little thing-a-mu-jigs that you put in your ears that'll help you hear. But to tell you the truth I like having my hearing aids off. I kind of like having a hearing loss and don't get me wrong. Its just whenever its loud in a sertan place I can always take off my hearing aids and all I hear is a buzzing sound. My hearing is alot better than it really was when I was younger. So yeah I can read lips. Like the people who are blind can hear really good. And the people who are deaf are sensetive when they touch things.

P.S. Don't tell any one of my secret power! (reading lips is a power!)

-Carissa Jacobs